Watch this and Chill

I’ve never done this before.

Not just the travel—though that’s new too—but everything. The hotel, the anticipation, the feeling that something big is about to happen. It’s my first time being alone in a new city. My first time being with someone older. My first time… being with someone at all.

I’m nervous. My hands keep fidgeting with the clasp of my bag. I’ve checked my outfit three times already. The black dress hugs me in all the right places, and the red soles of my heels feel like a secret weapon. I want to look confident. I want to feel confident. But inside, my heart is racing.

He said to meet him at the Plaza Hotel. Come at seven, and bring enough clothes for the weekend. That was it. No details. Just the thrill of not knowing.

I’ve read enough online to know that the first time can be awkward. Maybe even uncomfortable. But I also know it depends on the person—and he’s someone I trust. Someone who makes me feel seen. I keep reminding myself: it’s okay to be nervous. It’s okay to not know everything. That’s part of the adventure.

I packed carefully. The black dress. A few changes of clothes. My perfume—just two sprays. I didn’t want to overdo it. I even practiced walking in my heels around the bedroom, just to make sure I wouldn’t wobble.

Now I’m waiting. Watching the minutes tick by. Wondering what it will feel like when I see him. Wondering what it will feel like when we’re alone.

I’m scared. But I’m also ready.